Number of Days before I leave: 3 Days
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere,
I've looked at clouds that way.
But now they only block the sun,
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done,
But clouds got in my way.
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down and still somehow
It's cloud's illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and ferris wheels,
The dizzy dancing way that you feel
As every fairy tale comes real,
I've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show,
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know,
Don't give yourself away.
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud,
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds,
I've looked at life that way.
Oh but now old friends they're acting strange,
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day.
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
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I dont know why, but this song kept on playing in my head..
*Sigh*
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Song: Oh (Ciara)
Weather: Rainy Daze!
I’m so excited!! I booked my tickets for Manila and I'm leaving next week! I’m just happy to see my family and friends back home. I can’t wait!!! I just wish it aint raining once I arrive and of course I need some extra cash. I sooo miss my nephew!!!!
Well, it’s been a busy month. At times I couldn’t focus on my work since I’m already on vacation mode. I got sick last week. I have this terrible migraine. I guess it’s due to stress. I know that working here has been a great opportunity but sometimes it can be so damm stressful. There is a point when you are so fucked up with work that you feel that you wanna give up. Aside from stress I feel depress once in while. Reality will just hit you and you'll realize that you’re all alone in a foreign country. I hate those days. Good thing I have my fabulous friends to keep me sane. Going out and party'in is a nice therapy but the shopping would still be the best (Retail therapy)
Speaking of shopping, I been thinking of buying a DVD playa (with the whole package of course) since we haven't subscribe with Starhub. I miss my entertainment system back home. During my free time I'll just buy tons of DVDs and just sit my ass back home. I enjoy watching TV series more than movies. Since I’ve been missing that stuff (and I can’t bring my DVDs here since they're just bootleg copies..) .. I did some search for some cool quotes from my favourite TV series..
SEX AND THE CITY

Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you, you love, well, that's just fabulous.
Carrie: When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?
Carrie: Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.
Big: After a while, you just want to be with the one who makes you laugh
Samantha: Fuck me badly once, shame on you. Fuck me badly twice, shame on me.
Samantha: I will wear whatever and blow whomever I want as long as I can breathe and kneel
Carrie: Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you are to become who you will be.
Carrie: Despite the fact that there are over eight million people on the island of Manhattan, there are times you still feel shipwrecked and alone. Times even the most resourceful survivor would feel the need to put a message in a bottle, or on an answering machine.
Carrie: No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends
ALLY MC BEAL

One of the keys to life, the fast forward. Every movie has its lousy parts. The trick is to fast forward through them. As time passes, you look back and say oh, that little thing, oh that. You fast forward to then right now, and you're over it.
Whoever said that plenty of fish in the sea thing was lying. Sometimes there's only one fish. Trust me.
I actually like the quest, the search, that's the fun, the more lost you are the more you have to look forward to, what do you know, I'm having a great time and I don't even know it.
So here I am the victim of my own choices, and I'm just starting.
I think I need to believe that it works...love, couplehood, partnerships. The idea that when people come together they stay together, I have to take that with me to bed, even if I have to go to bed alone.
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Of course I lurve Ally Mc Beal! My next goal is buy the whole 5 seasons. I saw a bootleg copy back home but of course I couldn’t bring that here. I have last 2 season of Sex and the City. I guess I should add the previous season in my shopping list as well.
Aside from me, my Avila peeps are getting addicted with TV series. They have this constant DVD marathon. Imagine not taking bath the whole day to finish the whole season. Nope they aint watch'in any Housewife, CSI, Ally or Carrie.
They are so hook up with Korean TV series. Its “Full House”, actually my mom loves to watch tagalog dubbed Korean Telenovela. Every night the whole living room belongs to her and she doesn’t want the channel to be change. She even hides the remote control! Oh well what ever floats your boat and beside I kinnda like it as well (Save the last dance is hawt!)
I have a scheduled event today. After work I'll be helping out on a wedding. I just hope everything goes well.
Peace out!
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Number of new countries visited: 1
I know Im so outdated! Ive been busy with so many stuff and now I haven't have any time to update my blog. Well let me start by sharing the pictures of our new flat.
WELCOME TO CYRENENA!
Living Room

Hall way going to the kitchen

My Bedroom (Playroom)

Aleesha's Bedroom (80's Love Shack)
Our place have improved since we moved in. We are planing to get a new sofa since the current one is old and it smells horrible. April and May was fun. I attended several parties. You name it..From house warming dinners to BBQ dinners and of course Birthday parties..
Dinner@ Carole's Place

Arun's Housewarming

Apol and Tanya's Pre-Birthday Dinner


SCC Part'ay@ Clearwater


Of course i had a wonderful time in Bintan, Indonesia..










Since I moved in here I’ve been kinnda busy in the dating scene. I met some few interesting people from different nationalities. You would definitely figure out the difference between each one of them. I love meeting European guys since they are more romantic and drama free. When it comes to dating I only have one rule in mind. I never ever let my emotion take charge. I just wanna have a good time and basically take it from there. I know it sounds so “JADED” but the reason is I don’t want to get hurt anymore.
Well there is an exception in every situation. As I mention on my previous entry "I won’t be afraid to take the risk". Since I change my mantra in life I should be more courageous and try exciting stuff., but something happened a few days ago. Now, I think that quote is so overrated. Let me tell you why.
I met this guy in the internet (from a personals site) . He sent me the usual message ( your profile sounds fun. what to chat? Blah blah blah). Before I sent any reply I check him out first. His profile is pretty normal and his picture looks nice except for the fugly looking guy beside him.
If I’m working as a risk management specialist. I would already consider him a big “RISK” and being the old cautious me I should never get involve with him (BEWARE FRAUD CASE). Below are the reasons why I shouldn’t get involve :
1) Too young.. (I’m not into immature guys)
2) He lives overseas. (Long distance affair doesn’t work)
3) His picture includes this fugly looking guy (As Melo was saying, never date an expat who loves exotic beauty because you’ll end up looking like his/her servant)
So with my current mantra to be more brave and not be afraid of any risk, I decided to give him a chance. It turn out that he was really nice. I was blown away by his interest in me. He would call long distance and would talk for hours. I was enjoying our daily conversation and I was comfortable talking to him about anything. He even mentioned that he is coming over to Singapore (actually he is currently based in Europe). While I was enjoying the moment he suddenly confessed that he is in love with Mr. Fugly (guy with him in the picture).
In that situation the best thing to do is to dump him and never deal with him again. Since the momentum was high (take the risk!!) and basically I don’t want to be defeated by that fugly looking guy I continued talking to him and still assumed that there is chance for me to be in the picture (sucker!). In short I let myself be a victim of my own decision, I let my emotion take charge of the situation.
That’s not yet the major mistake that I made. I became true to myself I told him everything that I’m feeling for him (word vomit!!). I’m soooo stupid. It was a wrong move for me. To make the story short I ended up with nothing. My feelings got dumped and I was taken for granted. He chose to stick with his crappy relationship! (bitterness..)
Honestly, I don’t understand why people would stick in a relationship even if they are being abuse emotionally and physically. I guess love can make you blind and numb (literally). What happen between me and him is not serious. It’s just the old me who gets excited with new things but I end up unhappy once I have it. I did learn a good lesson for taking risk. In taking it you should at least have a safety net. Good thing I got slap by reality before I do something extreme.
As of now he would still sms me but I have to call it quits. I did see him when he got here and I was happy about it. I have this “what were you think?” moment at the back of my mind but physically we are not a match. He kinnda reminded me of my classmate way back in highschool ( hahahaha I don’t want to get into the details..) .
Nuff about men (Pleeassee). Let me share something great. I’m so excited this coming June because I’m going back to Manila for 11 days! I deserved that break. I miss a lot of things and people back home. My only problem is my budget (that stupid Moto Razor!!). I shouldn’t bought that expensive phone.
I think I’ll just fly with Jetstar since I don’t want to travel all the way to Clark with Tiger Airways.
I’ll just place an update here once my date is set and confirmed. In the meantime I’ll just lay back and enjoy the ride of my “so called” life!
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Anyway, whats new? I move out of Avila Gardens and Im now living in the "ghettos" with my gal pal Aleesha. Its so cool because the community is so lively. They have a lot of things going on and a lot of stuffs that you can do. We are actually close to central pak (Tampines not NYC hehehehe) and Bedok Reservoir.



Honestly I am enjoying our new house. I kinnda like how we transform our new crib and basically our theme is "ghetto fabulous" (snap! snap!). I just feel this good vibe about it. By the way we have named our place already. After a long discussion and careful consideration (as if..) we choose "CYRIL" but at night she transforms to "CYRENENA" thats his drag name. Fab ayt? I do miss my Avila peeps but hey were just one bus ride away! I'll just post some pics here once everything is settled.
Its offically summer! Im going to Mana Mana Beach Club in Bintan, Indonesia this April (yehey!). Its a well deserve vacation. After almost 5 months here in Singapore I have been missing the beach life. I kinnda miss Puerto Galera. I love galera's crowd and the parties (i wanna go home already!). Well, I have to settle with Bintan for now. I saw the resort's website and It aint that bad. I know its gonna be a fun since Indonesia is the 3rd country that I have visited. LOVES IT!
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Bangkok is such an amazing city, four days is not enough to even explore the hidden wonders of Thailand. The thing that sucks is when I got sick on the third day (bummer!!!). I had a fever on the 3rd day and I just slept the whole day. I hate that feeling..
Anyway, I arrived in Bangkok at around 6pm. I was greeted by a very strange and scary immigration officer. Dude he was something!! He has shouting at this Arab family and he wouldnt allow them to enter Bangkok and then he called me and asked for my passport. I was really scared but then everything went smooth. I took a cab straight to the hotel. We pass by this very long express way that reminded me of C-5 road back in Manila. Basically the whole city looks like Manila. They have tons of huge billboard ads along the road. You would see a mix of new and some old buildings. They have crazy cab drivers and some terrible traffic conditions.
I met Palims at the hotel lobby and we had dinner upstairs together with Carla. After dinner we went to this very cool place called "Cabbages and Condoms". We met up with Jasper an old friend of ours. We are talking about his experiences in Thailand. I think he's been in Bangkok for more or less that 1 year.



The next day I went shopping at MBK Center. Its kindda like Divine and Greenhills all roll in to one. I was so excited when all of a sudden M1 (my mobile provider from Singapore) called me. They were checking if I was abroad because i owe them 160SGD worth of overseas calls. I was so surprise with my phone bill! Its more expensive than my air tickets. My shopping mood was disrupted by the fucking roaming rates!! Thats like 12K in PHP and just for 1 night!! I decided to go home and just rest.


I've waited for the girls to finish there training. After work we decided to go to the night market at Pat Phong (did i spell it correctly??). They have a lot of cheap and fabulous products.
The next day we were planning to visit the Temples around the area, after that we planned to party all night. I woke up on my 3rd day and I wasnt feeling good at all. The girls went to work and I went to Burger King for breakfast. I was planning to meet up with Tetch and the rest of the crew but my joints as hurting me and i was feeling dizzy. I took a cab back to the hotel and I decided to rest. I stayed in bed for the whole day. My fever got worst and I fucking wasted my 3rd day!!!!
On my last day, I was feeling livelier. I woke up the girls as early as 7am so that we can arrange our Wat Pho and Chatuchak adventure. I was really in a rush since my flight is leaving at 255pm that day. After our breakfast we headed straight to Wat Pho only to find out that its closed (due to some religious event) and it will be open at 1pm. The locals offered a tour to visit 2 temples, the Standing and the Lucky Buddah!
One the way to Wat Pho

Standing Buddah



After visiting the temple and wishing for Good Luck we went to Chatuchak, The vintage shopping haven!! I love that place!! I hate it because I only have an hour to do my shopping (1 hour..can you believe that!). I went back to the hotel to get my stuff and I left the hotel, like around 2pm already!
I got to the airport just in time for my flight!! Thank God! Even if it was just 4 days I still love my Bangkok trip! It was nice to see some old friends! Thanks Palims and Carla! I miss you!!
Just as the saying goes "SO MANY SHOPPING CENTERS, SO LITTLE TIME". I will definitely go back to Bangkok!!
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Im so excited because Im gonna meet up with my friends from PS (Palims and Carla). Im planning to stay in there place for 4 days. Its my first time to travel alone by myself and honestly Im kinnda scared. GOOD LUCK to me!!
I heard that Bangkok has a lot of shopping centers and some other interesting stuff. For the first 2 days I'll be exploring it on my own. Im so excited to shop and experience Bangkok!!
I'll post some pictures once Im back.. See y'all..
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1) I have to lose weight!
2) No more excessive shopping ( I mean "lesser" shopping trips)
3) I need to be nicer to other people! ( Im not saying that im bad!)
4) I will go to church every Sunday :)
5) I'll be more Independent
And finally.. I wouldnt be afraid of taking any risk.. (hahahahaha) Well here are some highlights of 2005...







Of course I wont forget my sagada adventure! I wanna go back there by myself. I wont forget my fabulous CSA peeps! My breakfast club!!! As well as my bestfriends Sieg, Regan and Kim.. You all made my 2005 wonderful..I love y' all.
The most special event for me was to work here in Singapore. Its such a wonderful experience.
In my high school senior year my teacher ask me where would I be after five years? I told him that I'll be living abroad. Well its been 6 years and Im really happy since that dream came true. I know there would be a lot sacrifices like leaving my family and friends but I always keep them in my heart and they will serve as my inspiration to move forward. Talk about sacrifices. Ive learned that spending the holidays alone is very depressing. Even though I celebrated it with my friends here in Singapore, deep down I still miss the old times in the Philippines. Im just hoping that 2006 will be more exciting!
So to everyone that i met. For those people who made me laugh or cry. To those who made my life a living hell.
Thank you and lets all toast for the new year!!!
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Changi Airport is so nice compared to NAIA (of course!!). I was also excited since my passport got stamped (or should i say "chopped" for the first time).

Aside from the plane ride, I also had my first HIV test and honestly I was scared (LETS NOT GET INTO THE DETAILS WHY I'M SO WORRIED ABOUT THE RESULT). Good news is I'm negative. So kids.. PRACTICE SAFE SEX. hahahaha.. Another first for me is living on my own (yehey!!) actually its not just me I'm living with 5 of my gals from PS. I love our new home, we called her ZEN short for ZEN-gapore. They have a very fabulous pool and other amenities. Its a bit far from work but i still love it.


Going around Singapore is not that easy compared to Manila and I learned it the hard way. On my first visit to Orchard we took a train (MRT) from Bugis. On my first MRT ride I was surprise on how fast everyone and everything works. The people are walking fast as if it was the last ride home. Even the escalator was fast and I almost fell but the really funny thing is when i entered the train itself the door suddenly close on me. The door dont have any sensors like the MRT in Edsa. I have to literally push myself in fast otherwise I have to say goodbye to my left arm. Everyone was laughing since its was so stupid of me to rush in and leave the other girls behind. So lesson learned: BE VERY ATTENTIVE IF YOUR RIDING AN MRT.

Our first day at work aint that bad. I'm getting use to the new system and policies regarding my new job. It's a bit challenging since everything is done manually but I'm sure that I can cope up.

Aside from all of those first time stuff the saddest thing for me is to be away from my family for a long time. There are certain times when I feel lonely and I wish I was in Manila. I remember my first holy mass in Tampines (Holy Trinity Church). I saw a lot of Filipino families and I was crying at the latter part since I miss my family very much. Thanks for the internet and cellular phones I can easily talk to my folks back home.
Right now all that I'm think is I'm doing this for my family. I promised myself that I will help my mom once everything is settled. I will trying to make this a very memorable part of my life and of course there would me more "first" time experiences for me. Honestly, I'm proud of myself since I'm starting to achieve my goals.
"I wanna to live my life to the fullest"
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Mood: Happy/Excited
Song: Breakaway/ Thank You
WE GOT OUR S-PASS!! and its all 6 of us!! ( Thank you God!!) I'm so happy and excited to work in Singapore. This is actually my first time to go outside the country. I still remember when i spoke to Melo about finding a new job in a totally different place and now it came true, well the sad and scary part of it is being independent.

Im just so overwhelm with everything although its sad to leave my hometown, imagine me who grew up in "Pasig" and stayed there for 23 years. Of course I'll never forget my love ones in Manila. Im leaving on Thursday, November 10 and honestly Im scared of flying. I actually flew from Dumaguete to Manila when I was 1 or 2 years old, so I dont fucking remember anything. So, I considered my Jetstar flight my first airplane ride. My mom told me that its pretty cool and its just like riding a train. I will miss a lot ( and its really a lot) of stuff, people, places and other things here in the Philippines. Im just so thankful to my folks and my friends for all there love and support.. I MISS YOU ALL!!!
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I will truly miss all the madness and I will cherish the wonderful experience.
Thank you and I love you all.
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